Mother’s day

I wish you all a beautiful Mother’s day!
How did you surprise your mommy?!
I made my first self-made cupcakes and I must confess, they taste delicious!

If you need a good recipe download the

primrose bakery

app for your Iphone, if you’ve got one.

Jealousy

Mission accomplished!

Yesterday I made myself a perfect afternoon/evening with a good friend of mine! We met about 3:30 pm and went for a drink or two, or three or four!

We changed a bunch of bars and ended up in the one, the guy works in, I’m crazy about.

So we sat down. He came over and looked quite confused, greetet us and took our order. As he brought us our drinks, he looked not so much pleased to see me with my friend (whom he didn’t know as my friend).

Some time later he came to our table and asked, how I’m doing and we chatted a little. He didn’t make the impression as if he would have wanted to leave us alone, but then had to work after all.

Once again he had to come up. Stood up next to my friend and aksed: Who are you actually? Haha – jealousy – gotcha! So my friend introduced himself and he didn’t want to disappear.

Then I went away without a goodbye and I guess that drove him nuts!

At least he called me 2 hours later just to check up on me, where I am, what I’ve been doing and if I could come to his place, because he’s got it for his own tonight. I told him that I really hope that he is kidding me and that he isn’t believing that I’m gonna come up to his place just like that without a former first date.

He explained that I got it all wrong and that he would have had in mind to
watch a DVD or something and to chat a little on a comfortable, chilly couch.
I just said- yeah right! I know that code!

Well to close up, I told him that I can’t come and that I’m sure that he’ll have a day or night off once again sooner or later. So he said yes that we could go for a drink in the first place.

At last, jealousy is a great tactic to get somebody going in the right direction!!

Players

Referring to my last post, I mentioned players. Guys, who were hurt once and sacrificed to themselves that they’ll never ever get hurt again.

Just last saturday I was out once again. I met a guy I kinda like pretty much. He came up to me and greeted me with a kiss. He got totally horny and said that he’d do me right away and mentioned as well that he needs to find a place to stay at that night. I asked if none of his friend could offer him a couch. But he said that as he’s not yet so long in the city he doesn’t know so many people and that he asked the ones he knows, but everyone rejected him, because of their girlfriends.

I said so what now? You’re gonna find some other chick you can hook up with? And he answered no – they’ll find him. He also explained that he likes me and the way I look, but that I should know that he’s a jerk. That he fell in love only once and that that girl hurt him. We all know the rest of this story…

So I turned back to my friends and he came up to me once again, kissed me again, this time even more passional. He said that he likes the fact that I’m cool with the stuff he told me before and that he would like to call me at a time he would be up for sex.

I shut my eyes wide open and told him – That’s exactly NOT, how it’s gonna happen! And said that it’s his choice whether if he’s gonna stay a jerk or not. Then he asked, what would happen if he doesn’t – would we end up in a relationship?
I told him that I don’t know – that I don’t even know him yet at all so that I couldn’t tell.

Then he started listing again all the stuff he likes about me and said that he’s not falling in love that easily and that I could kiss another guy in front of him and try to make him jealous.

I just wondered what this declaration would have been supposed to say! So I just said that I’m not that kind of girl, who kisses anybody. So he asked, why I’m kissing him then. I just smiled.

Then he hit the road to another club with his friends and I got the creeps.

And once again it turns out to be a womanizer! Great! I had to change my tactics. So I gathered myself together and realized that I had to do something to make me feel better again.

He wanted me to make him jealous – Challenge accepted! I got myself to the club, he was in and checked myself a cell number right from the start.

But as I wanted to walk by hand in hand with Mr Muscolo, he wasn’t anymore, where I saw him an instant before. So it drove me nuts. I walked trough the whole club and got myself a hottie and then no sense in that!

But the next day he called me and we talked for an hour. The hottie also contacted me. So now I’ve got two guys and all I have to do is – play hard to get! I think that shouldn’t be problem after all!

Right in front of your eyes..

Men meet women. They start spending time with each other. They start to like them. They get on to the point, where they have to decide if they’re brave enough to risk some heartache in case they fall in love and they get dismissed.

This though decision has to be made sooner or later. Some think sooner is better, because they can fade away without hurting, but they don’t see that the damage is already done.

You can’t show someone the world from a total diffrent view and then just dissapear out of their lifes.
At least not without leaving some broken heart.

A lot of men got hurt from their lost loves. After that point of life they become players. They start thinking that everything would be easier, if they’d just fuck around without any commitments, because that way they couldn’t get hurt anymore.

But one day they’ll meet a girl, who will blow their minds, because she appears to be the one, who outshines all the others.

The only question that’s pending is whether if they’ll have the guts to give it a go and try having a nice time with that girl or if they’ll hit the run.

Mirror, mirror on the wall…

…who is the prettiest, funniest and smartest of them all?

This is the question I’m asking myself right now. After my almost “funny” breakup I came into dating phase, which means that I’m dating all around the clock. Last week was one guy on the run, tomorrow already another one.

Well by having so many options to meet someone cool, the only thing that’s really up to me is the choice, which one of them I want. But thank god I’m not that desperated (anymore) so that I’ll go for just any good looking, who’s into me.

I’ll tell you a lil bit about last/this week’s guy.
He was a 6,5 on a scale of 1 to 10. I guess this was ok, but not overwhelming!
We had two dates and a lot of What’s app conversation. So in the end I figured that our second date was more formal than anything else. We needed some drinks to come to step 2, which was kissing. And well that’s the point, which says – go for gold or stay cold! And I pretty much stayed cold. I gave all I got and he kinda too, but it just didn’t knock me off my feet – and a kiss should do exactly this!

(Good) Morning glory…

Ever woke up horny as hell?

I had the sexiest dream ever – I was at a club with my favourite DJ and we were talking. From one second to another we were standing in a secret chamber, which actually doesn’t even exist in the club!
He pushed me to the wall and kissed me passionately. Then he pushed me away again and wanted to exit the chamber, even opened the door, but I pulled him back close and whispered into his ear that I wanted him right now!!

He shut the door, pulled my hair, pushed me to the wall and drove me crazy…And then I woke up.

I never ever wanted to wake up again!!!

When a text message erases 2 and a half months of life…

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life, Love

Two weeks ago on this very day – I was pretty much crying my eyes out.
What about – a relationship that never really worked out for any of the participants. Emotional human beeing one could say. Well I have to agree with that. I was longing for a relationship, which wasn’t separated through a border. Got one. Tried. Failed. I’m single again! Wohoo ! No more playing someone I wasn’t in the first place.

He was an egomanic nazi, who didn’t like sex! So no loves lost!
My friends would say – told u so from the beginning. But heyyyy – he kinda looked good. That’s my excuse

So as my life must go on after an open end text message, which was actually ending one part of my life, I’m moving on.

Imagine I’m the luxury girl!!!

Bags & Shoes that are worth a holiday!

Hi there!

How’s your bank account doing? What says your pay ticket? Which creditcards do you use?

None of those questions one would ask a person on one of their first dates. Those questions are answered in time by gestures or things.

A woman, who wears expensive bags could be considered as a pain in a man’s wallet. A man, who is paying for everything could be considered as wealthy. But all of these assumptions can be wrong prejudices.

A girl that is carrying a Gucci bag ,doesn’t have to be calculating that her new boyfriend will be buying her second one.

A man, who works hard for his money and spends it on things, he needs to be able to manage his life with, doesn’t have to be thinking that he’ll have to bankroll his new girlfriend’s expenses.

But what if such a girl ends up with a man, who just thinks that he’ll be struggling with getting even with his girlfriend’s living standard?

Is it over before it even begun?

What do you think, when your boyfriend answers your conclusion that you miss him, after not seeing him 2 days, with something like that:

“Come on, we’ve seen each other thursday (30 min- visiting me because I was ill), friday (an hour we really spent together – it was his friend’s birthday party), saturday (coming to his place and watching him recover from his big fat hangover, while watching a movie I would never watch on my own and driving home afterwards with a cab – cause he wasn’t able to move – not to mention that I got the flu actually) , sunday (again coming to his place on my own and watching movies), monday( he taking me out for my birthday dinner and coming to my not really existing party and vanishing even before my friends arrived) -!”

And as I asked him, when we’ll see each other again he said kinda I could choose friday or saturday, but friday would be fine, because then he could give me my birthday present, which comes in tomorrow ( my birthday was Monday -just sayin) and that would fit into his schedule. Afterwards I asked if I really need to be an appointment and he just said,:” well yes as long as you live at your place and I live at mine, it kinda be that way!”

Am I too emotional? Or is it kinda normal to be in love with your boyfriend, you’re in a relationship
with for only 2 months? I don’t get him…

Well it might be a problem that I still live at home and he’s got his own place, car and life. But he knew from the start that I’m 22 and he is 29 and that I’m a student, who actually doesn’t raise her own money and wears Louis Vuitton, Gucci and Prada by not ever having worked her ass off for earning this money.

On the third date I asked him if he’s scared of women, who wear expensive handbags and he said no! So what the hell is wrong?

I know I could give up all my fancy life and become a human beeing that’s not used to any kind of luxury and works hard for her money and lives in her own place , at my age. But for god’s sake – why would I have to choose suffering? I was raised that way and I don’t see anything bad in it. Sure I might be spoiled about some things, but there are a lot of people living just like me in my city and country without beeing forced to change that.

I know now you think – sweetie maybe he’s just not the one for you. But then who is? Will someone ever love me for beeing me and stop judging me for what I do or do not?

I’m really at a loss with that situation. He seemed so into me at first and now every now and then he’s showing almost no interest at all. And I know I should leave him some time, but will time change the circumstances?